Story of my life..

After all that, today was pretty crappy.
I spent most of it alone, worrying that people were staring at me for wearing a skirt and heels and having a lower-than-usual cut top on. I'm not insecure, just paranoid. I felt really good about myself when I put together this outfit this morning and I felt ridiculous by the end of the day.
Then I had to walk all the way home because I forgot my change for the bus.
Money stresses really got to me today aswell. I can't afford anything at the moment let alone a school trip abroad, a holiday with my boyfriend, a holiday with friends and a holiday with family. And the school trip I don't think I have a chance of getting out of at the minute, unless I get hit by a bus or something. Plus I'd be going without any of my friends - worst week ever?
It's horrible to think that nothing can ever get done without a wad of twenties in your purse.
And now I'm going to see my grandparents who were both in hospital this week with heart problems - angina and a possible heart attack. Get a pack of tissues ready because no doubt this soppy thing will need them.

Today I've learnt that money = life.
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